New year, same me

I have been battling following the path God created for me this past year. Trusting that, He knew what was best for me.

But, since trusting him; my life has been better than better. I've been given opportunities that I didn't think I was worthy of having.

Envy

The green-eyed monster comes and go. Before it used to come from seeing what others had at school and now, it comes from every direction. From school, work, friends, foes, social media.

Everywhere.

And it's not just clothes or physical items. It's sometimes relationships; friendly, romantic, or family.

Down the river

Somedays I feel so small. So insignificant. This world is so big, there's so much going on all the time.

In such a big world, I forget how big of an impact I really have. Sometimes I feel so insignificant, like all I'm doing is really not changing much. That I'm just floating along a river not making a difference.

Then, I stop and just look around and see how much potential I have. How much potential around me. How much I have done. How much I want to do!

College

With my first semester under my belt, I can't believe how much has changed just within the past 6 months.

I care about things that I didn't care about before. I have a 401K! I balance school and work (which I did before, but now it's way more of a balancing act). I have opinions about political candidates and actually know things about how our government works.

Our plan and His plan

As finals are coming close, stress is overtaking every aspect of life and doubt and reality start to set in I started to doubt what I could do. How much I could handle. How much change would occur.

When freaking out about everything that could go wrong, my mom gave me her words of wisdom: even if my plan does not work out Gods plan will be working. My plan won't include the twist and turns, but Gods plan may need those turns to create something amazing.

Holidays

The holidays can be filled with so much drama. Whether it's within family or friends or work; for some reason the holiday season can bring up some nasty sides of people.

Mom

I am so thankful for my mom. As I have grown I have become closer and closer with her. But, especially in the last few months we have blossomed into a new relationship. It's not all you can or can't do this, we talk more just about life. The dynamic has changed.